Well, currently I'm stuck with a giant work load and not enough time to do it due to certain circumstances. I'm also back in that motivation/outlook rut I've seem to fall into every school year for the past 2-3 years. I have no clue what I want to go into, am taking on all honors/AP due to expectations, and don't really have to time to experiment and try things I may like as a career. Things seem increasingly futile as I can do what's mandatory to get to college/university but after I get there, what then? Plunge head first into the dark not knowing what I'll make of myself or delay it to search endlessly for something fulfilling? To add insult to injury, I've moved schools so I know nobody, and honestly, I don't think I want too. From what I can gather, most everyone there is either an idiotic loudmouth that does cringy 'roasts' mostly consisting of calling people slurs, or people I share no common interests or personality traits.
Metaphorically, I'm floating down stream with no clue where it goes nor does it show any signs of slowing down. I guess that's just life though, I'll either learn to deal with it or whine eternally.