That's sort of my problem. I made Candall a warrior, but he's not suicidal. He just knows he'll go to Tir Na Nog for bravery. Not to rip on anyone's RP but it feels frankly unrealistic and uncreative to just say "no we just gotta keep fighting!" It also feels like the solution is just getting shut down out of stubbornness. Which frustrates me as a player and the character of Marybird.
Right, but she's just getting aggressive toward the character of Marybird because of it, without really giving a good reason why negotiation won't work. Which, again, is super frustrating toward her when she knows the party has already faced Lord Bloodfang and lost big-time.
Which I'm happy about. My problem is that perhaps this won't be cohesive with the party. And my issue is, I don't want my PCs being shut down for suggesting strategy but then the other PCs following these Sapphire Owl guys and thinking "oh man their plans are so great!"
Perhaps I just have expectations from other RPs. But so far, I definitely don't feel like my characters have done anything significant to the plot, besides helping other PCs. It feels more like the Sapphire Owls have been doing things. I intentionally make balanced characters but they just don't match against these monsters.
I just feel left behind. A lot. Like a supporting character to the DM's tale. Frankly, I wouldn't mind if the PCs continued on their own. It would feel deeper to the story, because I just feel so on-rails right now.
I don't mean to complain. Apologies if this upsets anyone.