I feel bad for you man.
This might be the right decision. I mean, you're still young, you have plenty of time. Focus on your education and career. Get through college (or trade school, etc.) get a good, stable job, and then try. I have a feeling you've got quite a bit on your psyche right now, so wait until that load lightens before pursuing romance. That's my plan. I understand wanting to have a romantic relationship, hey, I want one too, but I've never understood why the teen years were considered prime years for it. There's so much going on, so much to do, i can never understand how anyone could handle it. Obviously, there are some that do, but not a majority. Besides if you wait until after you and most other people your age have gone through college, you both will have matured more, which is always good for a relationship in my observations.
I personally believe there's a person out there for everyone, you'll find her I'm sure. The key, is patience.
Or at least, that's my 2 cents.